Levels

I never realized until last night that pain levels can become so high that you think you will loose your mind. I experienced that last night. I think Nick was ready to shove me out the car on the trip home from Florida. I could NOT get comfortable in my seat.

Skip gave me her heating pad and after crying myself to sleep, I wasn't sure if I would ever get to sleep. I kept thinking about the movie I saw where the mom had cancer and she was begging her daughter to give her meds because of the pain. The daughter couldn't because it "wasn't time". I kept thinking as I watched it, how could this be, last night was unreal.

I love going to see my children, but if they made a sleep number bed that traveled, it would be better. Changing houses and sleeping on 3 different mattresses just put me in a whirlwind.

It makes me think too about how my sister Charlene must have felt when she had bone marrow cancer that was eating her spine. The pain she must have endured to the end.
It had to have been horrible for her. Thank the Lord for medication. We take it for granted.